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A sighting of a woman who supposedly died years ago sparks a desperate search for the truth in this breakout suspense thriller, perfect for readers of The Good Girl and The Widow.
Sometimes we choose to see only what we want. Sometimes what we see changes the way we look at everything...
Jarlath "Jar" Costello's girlfriend, Rosa, committed suicide when they were both students at Cambridge, and Jar has thought about her every day since. It's been five years, yet Jar is still obsessed with the idea that Rosa, the one true love of his life, is alive. He's tormented by disturbingly real sightings of her—experiences the psychologist treating him describes as "post-bereavement hallucinations."
When Jar receives a message from Rosa's aunt telling him that she's found Rosa's diary, he embarks on a frantic quest to finally make sense of the highly suspicious circumstances surrounding her death. But the deeper he digs, the more confused he becomes as he is pressed into a dark underworld where nothing is as it seems and no one can be trusted. When a startling discovery convinces him more than ever that these are not just hallucinations—that Rosa really is alive—Jar is thrust into the heart of a larger intrigue that may finally shed some light on Rosa's death...even as it dangerously threatens his own life.
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    • AudioFile Magazine
      This compelling audiobook takes listeners on a psychological roller-coaster ride as they consider how far they would go for the people they love. Jarleth "Jar" Costello, voiced by narrator Alex Wyndham, serves as the primary storyteller as he tries to discover what really happened to his girlfriend. Despondent over the death of her father and struggling in college, Rosa--expertly voiced, primarily through journal entries, by Katharine McEwan--supposedly committed suicide. But Jar and her own family don't believe it. The story spans six years and is told from three perspectives: Jar's, Rosa's, and her uncle Martin's, narrated by Derek Perkins. Listeners are forced to evaluate what they believe in this quest to discover the truth. K.S.M. © AudioFile 2017, Portland, Maine
    • Publisher's Weekly

      Starred review from January 9, 2017
      Jarlath “Jar” Costello, a London-based Internet click-bait content writer and the hero of Monroe’s thrilling debut, has started seeing a dead person. Specifically, he’s been seeing glimpses of Rosa Sandhoe, his girlfriend who leapt to her death into the sea off Norfolk in 2012 when she was a student at Cambridge University. Five years later, Jar is certain of two things: that Rosa and he are soul mates and that she’s still very much alive. A body was never recovered. When he gets ahold of an encrypted file containing Rosa’s journal, his faith is confirmed and his search for her kicks into high gear. A gear so high that the pages all but turn themselves as the story unfolds in taut chapters alternating between Rosa’s journal entries and Jar’s frantic quest. Monroe adds more voices in the book’s second half, keeping the guess-who’s-crazy/guilty ball in the air until the all-consuming reveal. Pacing is crisp and the plot is credible, but it’s the cast of expertly crafted, psychologically ambiguous characters that rivets. Monroe is the pseudonym of a well-known British author and journalist. Agent: Will Francis, Janklow & Nesbit.

    • Library Journal

      October 15, 2016

      The author of five spy thrillers, beginning with the John Creasey Memorial Dagger short-listed The Riot Act, Jon Stock takes on a different name to write a different kind of book. Jarlath "Jar" Costello is told that he's suffering from postbereavement hallucinations when he declares that he keeps seeing girlfriend Rosa, who supposedly committed suicide. Then he gets hold of her diary, which drags him down into a smoke-and-mirrors underworld he never knew Rosa inhabited. With a 100,000-copy first printing.

      Copyright 2016 Library Journal, LLC Used with permission.

    • Kirkus

      December 15, 2016
      Monroe's debut thriller is a paranoiac's dream with plenty of twists. It's been five years since Rosa Sandhoe, the love of Dubliner Jarlath "Jar" Costello's life, supposedly jumped off a bridge to her death. Her body was never found, and Jar, who frequently "sees" Rosa, has convinced himself that she's still alive. He finds a sympathetic ear in his best friend, Carl, but Carl is sure that Jar, in his enduring grief, is just seeing things and recommends that he see a psychologist specializing in "post-bereavement hallucination." When Rosa's aunt Amy finds what she believes is Rosa's diary, written while she stayed with Amy and her troubled husband, Martin, she gives Jar the hard drive, but it's encrypted, so Carl finds someone who can decode it. Entries are sent to Jar as they are recovered, out of order, and that's how they're presented within the novel, interspersed with Jar's investigation. The diary entries are revelatory, and Jar becomes increasingly convinced that Rosa was recruited for a disturbing government project, perhaps because of her deceased father's work. Rosa's diary entries reveal a young woman conflicted about her place in the world: she's not quite sure of how she fits into student life at Cambridge, and her intense love for Jar has her at odds with her nearly unbearable grief after her father's death. When Jar's efforts attract the attention of the police, he's sure he's getting closer to a horrible truth about Rosa, and for him there's no turning back, but what if the truth is closer to home than he ever could have imagined? Jar's labyrinthine search is intimately entwined with Rosa's story of self-discovery, making for an exciting read that combines the thrill of a spy novel and the intimacy of a coming-of-age tale. Fast-paced, satisfying, and, ultimately, life-affirming.

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    • Booklist

      January 1, 2017
      Five years ago, Jar Costello's girlfriend jumped from a pier and was lost at sea. Jar has never believed that Rosa died that night and swears he's spotted her in London. His therapist dismisses the sightings as bereavement hallucinations, and Rosa's family agrees. Then Rosa's Aunt Amy fearfully slips Jar her hard drive, claiming that detectives seeking access to Rosa's encrypted diary have trumped up child-pornography charges against Rosa's Uncle Martin. When the files are unencrypted, Jar finds Rosa's heart-wrenching chronicle of their love story interwoven with details of her recruitment into a covert espionage program called Eutychus. Convinced that Rosa is alive and in danger, Jar partners with a reporter who investigated the program before Rosa's disappearance, and they track Eutychus, using Rosa's diary, clandestine message boards, and boots-on-the-ground detection. Readers will easily fall into step with sensitive, quick-witted Jar, and Monroe's journalism experience lends realistic detail to the back-channel investigation. Smart, well written, and tangled in unpredictable twistsa top-notch psychological thriller.(Reprinted with permission of Booklist, copyright 2017, American Library Association.)

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